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auronluTitle: Love Her and Despair
Chapter 34: "Venus/Mars"
Final Fantasy X/X-2
Characters: Nooj, Baralai, Isaaru, Lulu/Auron
Rating: PG-13
Word Count: 2100
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The Story So Far: Sin has destroyed the fayth, and now only one thing can oppose it: Vegnagun, doomsday weapon from an ancient war. Auron and allies lure Sin to the Thunder Plains for a final showdown, where Auron hopes to distract Sin long enough to give Vegnagun one clear shot.
No one on the flight deck had spoken since Cid's low whistle. All eyes were fixed on the forward windows, where Shinra's scanners projected a grainy image of Auron and the fayth's statue through a film of rain and static. Past the display, they could see rank upon rank of thunderheads massing to the north. Sin was hidden by the clouds, but barbs of lightning were leaping towards it from the spire of every tower, forming a vast sizzling canopy.
Lucil had risen from her seat, one hand braced against the console, the other digging into Elma's arm.
Elma surreptitiously cupped her hands in Yevon's prayer, drawing a thin smile from Lucil.
Rikku was leaning forward, nervously drumming her fingers on the gun controls.
Inexorably, all the strands of lightning contracted together like the spokes of Thundaga magnified a thousandfold. The scanner's display went white. A blinding flash lit the Thunder Plains from end to end. Even at this distance, the gash of lightning splitting the sky from Sin's nose to the ground looked enormous.
Rikku gave a cry. "Auron!"
Isaaru blanched and pressed a fist over his heart. "Spathi."
On the viewscreen, the results of the strike were all too clear, even through the static. There was a new blackened crater where the statue had been. Steam curled up from the smoking ground. Auron was nowhere in sight.
"Damnfool thing to do," said Cid.
"Not Sir Auron," Pacce breathed.
"Shinra," Lucil said. "Signal V-team to begin their attack."
"Wait!" Isaaru said. "Sir Auron knew what he was doing. Give him time."
The prolonged crash of thunder finally reached them. The bridge shook violently. It felt as if the sky itself had quaked.
"Are you crazy?" Cid twisted in his seat, scowling at the summoner. "The man's a cinder. I reckon there ain't enough left to fill a lug nut."
"Shut up, Pops." Rikku's voice was muffled. Her face was buried in her hands.
"I shall believe it when I see it." The summoner raised his voice. "Lady Rikku. Sir Auron has survived encounters with Sin before. This is what he expected to happen."
"He's a doofus."
"Vegnagun's main cannon takes a while to fire anyway," Shinra said. "There's a twenty minute lag to build up the power."
"Oh, great. And you were gonna mention this when, exactly?" Elma said.
"I just did."
"Very well. Tell Lord Baralai: begin." Lucil released her vice-grip on Elma's arm, patting it in apology. "And may Yevon have mercy on us all."
Lightning's wrack was already fading when Auron awoke on a bed of wet leaves. The lush scents of jungle plants and sea-tang were overpowering. Thick flowering vines netted the trees around him, forming a living waterfall of azure blossoms larger than his head. Beyond this canopy, the trees ended. Root and vine and damp earth changed to sloping sand. Rising, he blundered towards open ground.
The beach was gray and colorless in the pre-dawn. Yet this was Spira, the true Spira they had loved and died for, and very little of it was colorless.
The sky was dusky lavender, with fingers of pink and saffron streaking the horizon. Besaid's harbor spread out before him, glittering and undefiled. Beyond its fringe of foam-crested breakers, the water was an astonishing dark green. Its depths held other jewel-tones: carmine, pale yellow and purple corals still glowing faintly where night's shadows had not yet lifted. Darting flashes were fish.
The forest sang with crickets and waking birds. Surf breathed and sighed.
Lulu's extravagances tended towards flare more often than flowers. Auron felt for his sword.
As if following a preordained path, he walked down the sand and into the ocean, ignoring the warm water seeping into his boots. Sand became broken shells, then reef. Coral and mussels crunched underfoot. Seaweed dragged at his legs. The air was clean, salt-kissed, as pure as if Yevon and Sin had never been born. He forced himself to go slowly and mind his footing, although his pulse quickened for the sight he expected to find.
Lulu was not there. Her chains remained, rooted in a bed of anemones, but the manacles were sprung. Seawater was already beginning to reclaim them. Barnacles crusted the links. The metal was corroding fast.
Pyreflies began to chuckle and whine in the back of his mind, but Auron was too close to his goal to heed them. His palm was itching again. On a hunch, he opened his hand and glanced down to see what the glyphs might show.
Mars.
Of course. It was the part he had come to play, after all. So where—?
And Venus born of sea-foam renewed her virginity each year, bathing in the waves by the grotto where first she had come ashore.
"Ah." He lifted his eyes, scanning the shoreline.
There. Veils of mist were drifting over the entrance of a small inlet to the right of the main lagoon, separated from it by a heel of land jutting out from the bluffs. He was no swimmer, and saw no way to reach it save by toiling back to shore and making a laborious trek inland to find a way down. But this was not Besaid, only its echo, subject to the Lady's whim.
Auron raised his left hand in salute, displaying the sigil etched in his palm. "Mars seeks an audience," he said, voice ringing across the water.
There was a quiet splash. Out of the mist glided a low wooden boat, its beams bleached bone-white. It turned towards him, barely rocking on the gentle waves. Auron stepped aboard as it skimmed past. The vessel wheeled slowly on an invisible eddy and turned back whence it came.
The mist changed to a pale golden-pink as the boat plunged into it. Auron glimpsed rose petals bobbing on the water, flowering vines floating out onto the surface in dark green rafts. Then the mist cleared to reveal a small, secret cove walled in on three sides by limestone cliffs. The keel slid up onto white sand and stuck fast. Auron stepped out. A trail of small, fresh footprints led up the beach. Giant conches, clams, and huge butterfly-winged shells were cast here and there like driftwood. He started walking.
At the back of the cove, the bluffs had been undermined to form a grotto. Creepers of fragrant jasmine came tumbling down across its mouth in a living curtain of white flowers. They matched the gleaming figure within. His breath caught, as expected.
Teasing was also expected. "Should I be honored, or do you wear this face for all Sin's favorites?"
Lulu was reclining on a shell-shaped throne of horn and ivory, seated sideways with one leg draped over the rim. A diaphanous gown fell from her limbs in cascading folds, still dripping from her dip in the sea. Dark hair spilled everywhere, pink coral and bits of sea-glass tangled in its waves. Her fishnet stockings were no longer black, but silver. Her necklaces had become strings of pearls and abalone. Garlands of flowers were strewn about with artful carelessness, the one across her lap providing more modesty than her dress. There were living flowers, too. Blood-red roses, poppies, orchids and bleeding hearts filled the grotto around her, sprouting from bare rock and barren sand.
It occurred to him that whoever had coined the term "bed of roses" must not have tried sleeping on them.
Lulu raised a finger and beckoned him with a haughty come hither smile.
He shook his head and came forward, ducking under the hanging canopy and dropping to one knee. Gathering her hands and raising them to his lips, he glanced down to inspect them more closely. Her wrists were red, rubbed raw, the only blemish on goddess-like perfection, but the shackles had vanished.
Foreboding prickled the back of his neck as she reached for the clasps of his breastplate. Auron pushed her hands away, ignoring the enticing distraction as she leaned forward. "Your chains?"
Smiling, she slid her fingers into the openings of his armor and drew him towards her, lips parted in silent invitation.
Auron stiffened. Thirteen years they had waited, and yet he found himself temporizing. "Lulu. Talk to me."
Her voice stole into his mind, an alluring caress. "...and for one night only war was in abeyance. For then did Mars put off his shield and panoply..."
Smooth fingers stroked his bare shoulder and arm. Auron flinched. Her touch burned. She had sometimes used magic in devious ways to tease bare skin with ice and heat. This was painful even without magic's kiss behind it. Auron felt a wave of heat flood through him as if life's blood had actually poured back into his veins. He had expected a courtly ritual, another of Lulu's coy games to thwart Yu Yevon while they enjoyed a bittersweet reunion, but suddenly fiend's primal urges were gnawing at his self-control.
He wrenched away just as magenta lips brushed his own, awakening cravings he had thought dead. "Stop. Enough."
She arched an eyebrow at him. Auron gripped her jaw with his gauntlet. Even that protection could not entirely fend off the siren's call of her flesh through metal and cloth.
"I did not come here for Yevon, Sin, Venus, or any other lie! I came here for Lulu. Where is she?" Even as he snarled the question, despair crept over him. Most likely, this was Lulu, all that was left of her. He had simply come too late.
Her eyes flashed. Auron backed away, leaping to his feet. As he drew his sword, she rose from her chair like Sin bursting from the depths, towering over him, an implacable figure of feminine beauty shorn of the greater beauty within. Black ribbons of hair snaked around his arms and legs. Cursing himself for carelessness, he hacked at groping tendrils. More kept coming faster than he could slice through them. The wind was picking up. A helmet-sized shell whirled past his ear like a blitzball and smashed against the cliff. Yu Yevon had laid a trap. He needed to get away.
There is no escape. Our fates are bound. Her voice in his mind was chilling, remote, hypnotic. Mars and Venus shall join. The Three Sisters shall be as gnats compared to the might of the Lord and Lady. We shall be Sin Eternal, in Yevon's name.
Suddenly he was in two places at once. In the Lady's grotto, he was struggling against dark thongs wrapping around his arms, legs and neck. A green wave was building, thundering towards the narrow cove. Out on the Thunder Plains, lightning was leaping to meet him. A shield of energy was building around him— it— Sin— for a cataclysmic shockwave aimed at a knot of menace skulking in the fog-lands to the south. Was this the power Seymour had coveted? He was Sin, he was a fortress, he was Spira itself, the axis around which the spiral turned—
Auron, break free! Go. I'll hold back as long as I can."
Dimly he became aware of another will beside his own, struggling like a fish in a net. Relief washed over him. "No. Help me find you. You don't have to fight this battle alone."
With an effort of will, Auron freed his arms for a swing. The sword crashed down on the Lady's throne, cleaving it in two. The ground broke beneath it. Sin's vision of the Thunder Plains vanished. The false Venus burst into seafoam, blinding him just before the crushing wall of water rolled in, picked him up and flung him against the back of the grotto. He was drowning. With his last coherent thought, he wondered whether unsent could die in dreams.
"Hey, Bar, how's it coming?" Gippal called over the link.
"Eight minutes," Nooj said. "Cut the chatter. Baralai's having a hard time getting target lock. Vegnagun's itching to blast everything in sight."
"Well, tell him to hurry up!" Cid said. "Sin's moving this way, and that energy shield it's got is fixin' to blow!"
"Shut up." Sweat shone on Baralai's brow as his fingers swam across the keys, pounding out a chaotic scale. The volume was building. So too were the vibrations in Vegnagun's frame. Arcs of energy circled the outside of the cockpit like a dynamo, skittering along the barrel of the main cannon extruding from the machina's torso. "Nooj, raise the nose ten degrees."
The air quaked around them. The fog flashed white and sheared away. Laid bare to the sky, they could see Sin's monstrous shadow bearing down on them through the clouds. The globe of energy around it was coalescing into a pulsing fist.
"Baralai," Nooj said, easing Vegnagun back on its haunches, tracking the enemy's approach.
"I know," he said. "Nooj, fall back to the south side of the crater. Cid, Gippal, get out of the way. Seven minutes."
Next Chapter: Eight of Swords
Author's Notes
Credit:
@mintywolf has outdone herself again with this illustration; you gotta see the full-sized version.
Meta: The throne of horn and ivory is based on the Gates of Horn and Ivory, the entrance to the underworld/Hades in Greek & Roman mythology. One side sends true dreams, the other lies.
Chapter renumbering: Originally Chapter 38, posted Feb 2010.
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Date: 2019-08-10 12:28 am (UTC)You know I love all the lush imagery in this chapter (or I would not have wanted to illustrate it!) but I also love the mounting sense of tension and unease and SOMETHING IS NOT RIGHT as the scene progresses. It's very well executed.
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Date: 2019-08-10 08:51 am (UTC)(There's a lot of scholarly and neopagan discussion about what it meant when Greek goddesses ritually bathed to renew their virginity. This encyclopedia entry is surprisingly good. It touches on a lot of points I remember hazily from my classics and mythological studies training (especially the books of Dr. Christine Downing). But I'm not sure of its sources. As I'm sure you know, most websites/online articles about Greek goddesses tend to have neopagan/modern eco-feminist notions projected backwards onto ancient Greece, so it's tricky to sift out original source info from "expanded universe." Which is also dancing around the bush because yeah, she doesn't look like she's there for a ritual purification/re-kore-fication, does she?)
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Date: 2019-08-10 09:27 am (UTC)Except the version you read didn't have that adjustment, because somehow in the course of editing i reverted to the original chapter.
Which is still damned good. I waffled a lot on which bits to prune.
I'm putting the right version up now. I'd pruned the purple prose between Auron waking up and stepping into the boat. I barely changed a word once it gets to Lulu. Search for "magenta" and "seafoam" for the two changes of note.
[Edit: I strongly suspect Pumpkin may be the culprit; he's leaning on all the controls/function keys on the left side of the keyboard, including the undo key, and I keep having to wrestle him off.]
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Date: 2019-08-10 03:20 pm (UTC)Pumpkin!! Yesterday when I was fic-writing Miss Victoria reached over and put her paw on the trackpad, which somehow closed out the entire window I was working in. Fortunately it was a Google doc, so it autosaved, but that is dangerous power for a kittyfoot to have!
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Date: 2019-08-10 06:22 pm (UTC)no subject
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Date: 2019-08-12 09:21 pm (UTC)My take is that Yevon isn't remotely human any longer, and it's just looking at Auron as a threat to be neutralized and/or absorbed. Lulu seems to think highly of him. The Lady/Cult of Sin provides insurance on Yevon's own perpetuity if the Church of Yevon falls apart (a mechanism for keeping the people of Spira in line and providing new fayth for Yevon to exploit from time to time.) Yevon is using Auron's connection to Lulu as bait to capture him, turning the tables on Auron who was using Bahamut as bait to catch Sin.
I'm a little ambivalent about the Venus/Mars angle in this story, ten years later. I am very much trying to distinguish courtly love (Auron playing the part of Knight to his Lady) from lust.
Which is to some extent at odds with one of my original ideas for this story: that Lulu can block Yevon from reading her mind (or controlling her) through the Arts of Venus, i.e. sexual pleasure. That idea was inspired by a character in Babylon 5 who can stun the parasite controlling his mind (attached to him physically) by drinking— alcohol makes him drunk, but it puts the parasite to sleep.
So I had the idea that Yevon, the tick, the no-longer-human summoner, might not be able to parse fleshy, sexual impulses, to the poin that its hold on its host loosens when their mind goes strongly in that direction. I had the idea that Lulu was using the Arts of Venus --i.e. sexual pleasure-- to push Yevon out of her mind temporarily. My original conception was that she as Sin/The Lady was luring sailors in like a siren, mindfucking them, and using those moments to be herself without Yevon knowing what she's up to. (Except, as she remarks to Auron ruefully, "none of them were you.")
I also had this idea from various Mediterranean and Near East goddess cults where part of honoring the goddess of love was for the priestess(es) to sleep with devotees. Because outside Puritan, Protestant culture, there are many cultures where sex is celebrated as one of life's pleasures. Shame is not attached to sex in every culture. And I could imagine Lulu, who uses a fair amount of innuendo in her battle language, being a person who's comfortable with sex— she is connected with the Venus symbol, after all-- not only as an exchange of love, but as an exchange of pleasure between two consenting adults. (Note that this fic started when there was a lively community of Auron/Lulu shippers writing some fairly enjoyable erotica, who would've enjoyed that angle.)
However, I've pulled back from my original Cult of Sin idea, because even if Lulu's personal philosophy includes sex positivity, making her have to sleep around with random strangers to survive is... distateful.
But I can't ditch the idea entirely, since a plot point depends on it.
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Date: 2019-08-12 10:20 pm (UTC)IMO this would also be something that a male-based intellect would find more difficult to comprehend than outright resistance, so even more effective for her.
Considering that Yevon is experiencing Spira through Sin & his domination of the Summons, I find it believable that being rocked by a second-hand orgasm would be far more of a 'high' than the wanton destruction of a village.
And yes, I like the comparison to Londo Mallari & his tactic for briefly nullifying his watcher.
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Date: 2019-08-15 04:06 pm (UTC)I had NO IDEA that that was what was going on with the Cult of Sin, even reading the original version. (Or that that's how Lulu was resisting Yu Yevon!!) D: I thought she was just like an object of worship from the people who had been stunned by her beauty in their visions of her. I mean, I was aware that there was some suggestiveness and flirtation going on but I guess I just never read between the lines.