Zeeeeee!

[auronlu]

Sorry to be confusing. I'm trying to keep my erotica/adult fanfic identity separate from my online persona which is known to a mostly-different set of friends. Partly because my main LJ page is read by some of the younguns on the ginormous "family friendly" LOTR site where I mod.

But I forgot I was logged in with the "kidsafe" handle when I friended ye.

Anyway, your writing rocks. I've got no quarrel with slash, but it's nice to have some well-written het around for those of us who prefer one or more clit in the mix.

(I can't believe I just wrote that O.o)

Comments

Snerk...

[zeedrippyvessel.livejournal.com]

What archive???

And as for Slash vs Het... There is just SO much oil and spit in Arda! I'd rather see the WOMAN get plugged!

Oh and what is it about guys and 'headlights'. Even thin, I had an amazing.., uhm... 'rack'... *40 - 24 - 36*. I had been f-buddies with a guy for quite some time (met him at church)and I finally asked him once - What color are my eyes!? And closed them.

He couldn't tell me.

I'll get you friended. Why do you want to read my wank anyhoo???

I'm just a random fan of yours.

[auronlu.livejournal.com]

Don't friend my poor prudish alter-ego, just this lj, thank you very much! This is where I indulge in fanfic, smut, and sex. My brain is split right down the middle; it's a good thing I started writing lemons before I exploded from the straight-and-narrow-jacket I was jamming myself into on the LOTRplaza.

This is Helluin on Ficwad and AFF. I posted a useless but happy review and contacted you on the ficwad archive a few days ago when you started posting the Gamling story there. I have enjoyed your fic for a year or so on Of Elves and Men.

I friended you after TrekQueen pointed me towards your rant about AFF being frustrating as hell. I am a brand-new writer on AFF, but have also gotten quickly and violently discouraged there by the whole name-calling finger-pointing mess. You made good sense, and I thought, "hey, this is Zee, one of my favorite smut writers, and she talks good sense, and she writes good rants."

Finally, I was encouraged by your comments on the AFF yahoohgroups list (before it got nasty) about how even you were unsure and a little self-conscious when you first started writing.

Re: I'm just a random fan of yours.

[zeedrippyvessel.livejournal.com]

Ah. Okay.

Just a warning. My LJ is mostly where I rant and have at. I do it behind the lock and right now, I'm wanking gloriously. I'm slightly... disturbed, y'know...

Ah yes...

[zeedrippyvessel.livejournal.com]

Posting for the first time.

My first ficlet was "use me once' - totally useless piece of work, but it was a challenge piece for a pairing that one doens't see often and not being really up on my canon, I butchered that thing in about 35 minutes. I had already written the first 3 chapters of Empty Vessel, but I hadn't posted it yet.

I was really lucky - I got a wonderful response to EV and some REALLY good, constructive advice from several published authors and editors. I'm glad it was finished and done when GAFF and Deleterius flamed it. I'm redoing it right now, between chappies of Rider and Tel' Lindar so hopefully some of the holes and canon errors will be fixed, but the canon whores will still hate it as it's STILL going to end the same.

Either way, I strongly feel that writers should be nurtured, not made fun of. it's important to remember that for the most part, fanfic writers AREN"T professionals. We write to please ourselves, to release creativity, to manipulate what we want to see happen. I make no bones. The "Gamling" I write, is the man I'm looking for in real life. Tough when he is supposed to be and gentle when he needs to be. Flawed, sometimes quirky, but honest and noble. You know, the NICEST feedback I got for that fic was about 7 chapters into it. A woman wrote me that she was divorced, had been for several years. Her husband left her with two pre-teen-aged children for someone 'younger, tighter, and no stretch marks' and hse was needless to say, not fond of the opposite sex becuase of it. When she read Rider, she began to have faith in the opposite sex again, becuase she knew 'her Gamling was waiting somewhere for her'. And yes, I cried over that one.

So yes, there are teenagers who are in the 'lurve-legolas' stage and they are just in it for the attention. What's the point of making fun of their OFC's unbelievable pet purple dragon?

Either way, hitting the 'post' button that first time is QUITE frightening and everyone who does it, deserves a round of applause.