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I have finally found kink.
<Overshare>I never could figure out what people meant by "kinks."
I have finally discovered two in myself.
1) Magic. I love sensual/empathic descriptions of being connected to, channeling, using magic, particularly elemental, nature-derived magic. I used to sit out on my porch and watch thunderstorms...even hurricanes...roll in. I wrote gobs of bad poetry about the way the wind would move through the forest, the flare of the lightning, the rain sheeting down, the way these 150-foot oaks and maples would bend and move like muscles of some enormous beast. I'd call in the storm, call on the elements, call on my OFCs and dragons and unicorns and phoenixes and all that archetypal crap. I had no idea what I was doing, I just...did it. Rain on my skin, snow on my face... I loved it.
Later I fell head over heels in love with Hawaii after watching the volcano erupting, the lava creeping down the hills at night. And even now, I have a guilty pleasure in watching wildfires. I love experiencing earthquakes. "Hi, Mom!" Yeah. Heck, that's probably why the old MYST/RIVEN series hooked me so much: the landscapes were numinous.
I think nearly every piece of erotica I've written involves the elements -- magic or water, or at least a very present forest -- in one way or another.
2) Hair. Braids. I miss getting my hair brushed by someone else. Maybe it's because my scalp is about the only part of me that doesn't hurt. Anywhere else, the touch is a) pleasant but I'm having to block out accompanying aches and pains (not necessarily the spot being touched, but arthritic back, hips and knees make just about any position uncomfortable) or b) easing pain, which is not quite the same thing as stimulation. Also, I just love long hair. Especially braids.
Which, of course, explains why I'm permanently stuck on Lulu.
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I have finally discovered two in myself.
1) Magic. I love sensual/empathic descriptions of being connected to, channeling, using magic, particularly elemental, nature-derived magic. I used to sit out on my porch and watch thunderstorms...even hurricanes...roll in. I wrote gobs of bad poetry about the way the wind would move through the forest, the flare of the lightning, the rain sheeting down, the way these 150-foot oaks and maples would bend and move like muscles of some enormous beast. I'd call in the storm, call on the elements, call on my OFCs and dragons and unicorns and phoenixes and all that archetypal crap. I had no idea what I was doing, I just...did it. Rain on my skin, snow on my face... I loved it.
Later I fell head over heels in love with Hawaii after watching the volcano erupting, the lava creeping down the hills at night. And even now, I have a guilty pleasure in watching wildfires. I love experiencing earthquakes. "Hi, Mom!" Yeah. Heck, that's probably why the old MYST/RIVEN series hooked me so much: the landscapes were numinous.
I think nearly every piece of erotica I've written involves the elements -- magic or water, or at least a very present forest -- in one way or another.
2) Hair. Braids. I miss getting my hair brushed by someone else. Maybe it's because my scalp is about the only part of me that doesn't hurt. Anywhere else, the touch is a) pleasant but I'm having to block out accompanying aches and pains (not necessarily the spot being touched, but arthritic back, hips and knees make just about any position uncomfortable) or b) easing pain, which is not quite the same thing as stimulation. Also, I just love long hair. Especially braids.
Which, of course, explains why I'm permanently stuck on Lulu.
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well, since we're sharing.
My other big kink in FF games is status effects used for not quite the intended purpose; Blind and Silence are fantastic fun without the pesky problems of dislodged blindfolds or the issue of setting a gag correctly (nor do the spells pull hair, which both of the mundane options do). Immobilize has all manner of fun implications. Etc.
I will sit still for hours if someone wants to pet or brush my hair. Mmmmmm.
Re: well, since we're sharing.
I've also been known to use Hastega as a convenient way to prolong a quickie: to the rest of the party, they've been gone 15 minutes, but for the participants, it was 45!
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There's a lot of other stuff in it, but the original seed that spawned the whole saga was the image of Lulu ...enjoying herself as Sin...reveling in it, taking a certain professional pride in it, even while mourning the destruction she's causing.
The Hawaiian goddess Pele heavily influences my vision of Lulu.
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But a) I wasn't ranking anything as superior/inferior-- that would require me to be comparing my tastes to some other point of reference
b) I don't see how "vanilla" relates my post. I suppose you could label the hair-kink as "vanilla", but...why bother?
c) Possibly I still don't understand what others mean by "kink." I mean something rather deeper and more complex -- in a Jungian sense -- than "what someone really likes". However, I'm not so much interested in defining and debating labels, as exploring/evoking/expressing the thing labeled.
Does that make sense?
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Anyway tl;dr no offense meant!
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I've had a bucketload of analytical psychology and depth psychology and all that crap, and I had much the same reaction to Freud (or not so much Freud, as the people who came after Freud): it's not all about the sex! Some powerful feelings, obsessions, complexes are non-sexual.
Yet there is at the same time a flavor of...passion? that can only be described as sexual. Sure, those two things I identified as "kinks" affect me in non-sexual contexts. But I suddenly realized they are not only nearly always present in my erotic writing, but they are nearly always the most important, major, or at least a powerful source of sexual stimulation. They're common threads, underlying notes, like the drone of a bagpipe or the drum-beat in most rock music. Whereas sexual positions, acts, the gender of the partners vary a lot more in my writing.
Anyway, not to make a mountain out of a molehill, it's just that I think maybe, while I have shared your POV about "What the heck is a kink? It doesn't exist!", I am dimly grasping that there could be something in one's erotic proclivities that is bedrock, a touchstone, a catalyst, a core. And it may not necessarily be something that is literally part of the sexual act or experience; it just has to be something that evokes/inspires/triggers/arouses/enhances the feelings of that experience.
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IT IS EVERYWHERE
Now Tae's "Big Things Come in Small Packages (http://sekiharatae.livejournal.com/56523.html)" goes and adds materia to vibrators so as to apply various minor elemental spells.
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I take this as a good time to mention that I randomly came across your Lulu/Rikku erotica on adultff.net and loved it. Seriously, it's so difficult for me to find smut that I actually like. I'm working on a Lucil/Paine fanfic (yeah, weird couple, I know), and I'm very much into imagery and the 5 senses. Your two pieces (that Thunder Plains one was my favorite) really inspired me to be a better femmeslash writer. I really want to see more f/f love in fandom =( But as it's composed largely of straight females who only write for characters/pairings they're attracted to, it's rare. And I want to put more of it out there.
I read kink-fic sometimes, although I can be just as pleased by a really well written and emotionally appealing vanilla sex fic. Heck, in the Lucil/Paine fic I'm trying to set up the plot and having the two women understand each other before the attraction and sex is involved. I would love to show you an early draft if you're interested, although I'm far from finished because there's so much I want to explore between them. I have a love for rare pairings (seriously, am I the first person ever to enjoy this couple?) and minor characters, so I doubt it will get many reviews, but I want to try.
And Lulu really is grand. There is something delightful and sensual about her. She's definitely up there with my list of sexiest FF characters: Quistis, Paine, and Ashe are up there too.
Did I mention I also adore Myst/Riven? Definitely some of the most beautiful worlds ever, and I especially adore Riven-era Katran/Catherine. Those are some of my favorite games but since I got a Mac I can only play the newer ones. Myst III is still good, though.
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Feel free to send me drafts of Lucil/Paine. I'm not sure what help I'd be, and I'm a little spacey about checking email, but I'd very much enjoy seeing those two in a story.
I was a very early Myst fan-- I've still got an old PowerPC Mac around partly so I can play Riven (not that I have lately, but I loved it so).
Going up the elevator to meet Katran was the first time I ever had tears in my eyes watching any movie, playing any game, or reading any book. I was THAT moved by her, primarily through her writing, which was her magic. MYST was my main fanfic fandom for years, largely centering around Katran... "I can write dreams... and they are real." What a character. I also loved Atrus' grandma, who co-wrote MYST Island with Catherine. (I so love a game world where people write books that are portals to the places they describe.)
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Myself, I have been more drawn to writing the warrior types in this fandom -- Paine, Auron, Nooj, Balthier in FF12 -- which is odd, because IRL I don't tend to be attracted to those sort of people at all. But something about writing their physicality appeals to me, perhaps because it is so different from what I'm drawn to in other places.
Ah, yesh.
Writing physicality is very appealing; most of us are too stuck in our heads.
Your meta-fic on "Lulu is five" is what started the thread of this thought process, indirectly, since I didn't really see it until I noticed my reaction (and other people's, apparently) to
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And oh mercy yes, I know what you mean by getting your hair brushed. My hair is well past my waist now, so combing through this mess is one hell of a hassle, but having someone else brush it? My goodness. Lovely sensation. Very calming.
It sucks when I do take the time to braid it because my hair is blonde and people insist on yelling something stupid like "Rapunzel!" or "Hey, Brunhilde! Yo, ho, ho, ho!"
Grrr...