Someone (I think faintdreams
?) asked if I would be doing a comparison of Nine Worlds to Worldcon and... Honestly I don't think it would be fair of me to do that, because Nine Worlds was a really chilled, relaxing thing for me and at Worldcon I was a constant ball of anxiety.
I am sorry to everyone who met at Worldcon for not being my best me! You were all absolutely lovely!
(... Yeah, I went with Jay and Lex and a) the accessibility of airports is their rant to have and not mine, but seriously if Jay wants me to swear vengeance and also write a thousand angry letters against our airline I will do that;
and b) Lex realised very quickly that the convention was not his idea of fun, which he was fine with
but it turned into an anxiety circuit for me, because my brain was doing the fun thing of internalising "Oh, wow, I am a terrible wife, Lex paid like £700 to be here and he's not enjoying it at all," and literally refused to take in the part where he said that it was worth it because he got to support me during the Hugos.
Like, that was Friday
, and I did not take in the "Oh, Lex paid the £700 because he loves me and the Hugos are a big deal to me," until Monday.
I still feel a bit "Fuck me I am a terrible friend," but Jay is recovering and apparently had a good time despite everything, and Lex is glad to be back at work, so it all shook out!)
YOU SEE WHY I CAN'T REALLY COMPARE MY NINE WORLDS EXPERIENCE TO THE WORLDCON ONE. I will say that Worldcon is a lot more... Crammed? Than Nine Worlds? Like, Nine Worlds leaves plenty of time between panels for people to, y'know, get to the next panel, have a drink, eat something... Whereas Worldcon is Hot Fuzz levels of "THERE IS ALWAYS SOMETHING GOING ON!" There is always
something happening, and if you want to get between panels in time to actually get let in, you have to leave your first panel fifteen minutes early or run the risk of not getting there before they start turning people away. (Unless of course, you're that douche who ignores the "No standing in the back due to fire safety rules" and lets yourself in anyway.) Also, the panels are maximum forty-five minutes long, maybe twenty-thirty if they want to take questions, which feels LUDICROUSLY short after Nine Worlds. I guess when there's like six thousand people, it makes sense to cram as much in as possible? But it was definitely a massive scale-up. (Plus, I really really miss the pronoun stickers Nine Worlds has. And the no-photography lanyards. And the markers for your badge of whether you want to talk to people. ... I think what I'm saying is that Worldcon has more stuff to do, but Nine Worlds has more set-it-and-forget-it accessibility, I guess?)
(If there were any panels you missed, a few of them are up on youtube!
BUT WHINGING ABOUT MY MENTAL HEALTH ASIDE: HEY GUYS, I WENT TO WORLDCON, WHO WANTS TO HEAR ABOUT ALL OF THE COOL PEOPLE I MET?( Read more... )
It was a good trip, apart from the anxiety and airports being made of stress! I might try it again when it gets to Dublin (I can just GET THE FERRY, she says, more in hope than expectation) to see if it's any different? It was lovely to meet everyone, and finally put like... People to words? And just THANK YOU ALL SO MUCH, you were great!